Oct. 16
So I was told that I had to write more in this blog. I suppose I should as it is usually a nice way to get some things off my chest and to update people that actually read this thing with what is going on in my life; especially those whom I do not talk to everyday.
If you didn't get it from the title, I am home. I've been home for about 2 1/2 weeks. It feels like it has been ages since I left Nottingham. It really does, it feels like at least a year. I'm missing out on all the fun stuff going on and all the cool people I got to hang around with practically everyday. As I said in my previous post; I don't think I will ever find a more inviting group of people who so quickly made me one of their own and had so much fun with. It was a fairly depressing day, the day I left. I had a knot in my stomach the whole day, and I was tempted numerous times to just not get on the plane. I knew that would not be in my best interest, but at that point I wasn't really sure I would care. My friend Stacey told me that it was okay for me to be sad, until I got on the plane; then I had to be happy to be heading home after a long journey.
I was happy to be going home, but it was just a hard couple of weeks to try and be both happy and sad at the same time. I was very happy to see my friends and family again. It is unfortunate however that a majority of my friends don't live very close to me (2+ hours away.) I have two, maybe three friends in my area of less than 30 minutes away. One goes about an hour 1/2 away for the week and comes home on the weekend and the other works during the week; this basically leaves the weekends. Which is fine, I just haven't found something to do during the week yet....aka job.
I've applied to a couple places and hopefully that will go in the direction that I am hoping. I have two paths and those are Gov't and teaching. I can see myself doing both, but right now it is a matter of which I can get into. Teaching means more school and Gov't is much harder to get into. So we'll see how that goes. For the time being I am toying between subbing and the temp agency. The temp agency is more likely to happen over the subbing as it pays more and I'll have something everyday rather than a maybe every morning getting woken up at 630 to see if I have something for the day or not....not the best of ideas. Early morning wake up call + kids who prolly won't listen to you + not a lot of money = not a happy camper Josh. I'm just hoping I don't screw up the applications for the gov't jobs... But as my mother says I should stay positive and give myself more credit than I do. Which is true; I don't give myself any credit at all.
Being at home is...different...I mean yes, I am 22, practically 23, and independant. But at home the atmosphere is so different than I am used to. I have a smaller space that is not necessary all mine, because I can't really do anything I want to it, and don't have as much room as I would like... such is life. I wouldn't mind getting my own place, but I am certainly not in a position to be able to afford that...again, such is life. I'm happy being home for now, but at a certain point I'm going to have to move on, move past it, and start my life. I look forward to having my own place; being able to put stuff together, have control over the design/looks of the place, and be able to do my own projects. If I want to rip out my bathroom, I could rip out my bathroom...I think if I did that here and my father, my mother more so, came home, they might have something to say about that. I like spending the quality time with the fam, but being home every night gets to be a bit rough and I'm not really used to it.
My room is in a state though...I still haven't unpacked my bag of misc. items yet. Mostly because I don't know what to do with all of it; things like posters, things that sit on your desk, and random assorted technical bits and bobs. Mehr. On top of that I have my Warhammer stuff out, and I have no where to put that stuff either, so it sits in the middle of my floor. I have too many books so those are stacked up on my bureau and too many clothes, so those are all tucked away somewhere.
I went to RI last week. It was a good time, visited all the professors and friends at RWU. There was some interesting goings on in that part of the trip, but I won't delve into that right now. Went to see Brian and Jacob over the weekend; really good time. Zombieland was amazing, we had coney island hot dogs and played some Warhammer. We went to King Richard's Fair. It was fun; expensive though. I shot some arrows...for 4$....threw some knives...for 3$...but it was a good time. Jacob played the emo kid and continuously wandered off...but we put him in his place, I think his mood is better now. There was always a caste we put ourselves in; which was mostly picking on Jacob. This was an earlier situation. Brian just makes fun of all of us, I try and make fun of Brian, usually fail, so I make fun of Jacob too. Jacob tries to make fun of both of us, but fails. I would put that into a graph or something, but that just would take up too much time. But anyway, we put that all behind us; Brian and I decided that we would make it so that routine was no longer followed, but Jake assumed that it would just be the same...so he was pre-emptively emo. That won't stay, we'll make sure of that.
But I feel this is a good enough update for the time being. I'm going to bed, past my usual 1030, which has been the time everyday this week.
Edit: I also decided to make the blog a bit more simple for the time being.